It's not you, it's me. Wait a minute. Strike that. Reverse it. Part Two.

This new bitterness of mine needed to be dealt with.  So, rather than dwell (although I'm still a bit pissy about it), I decided to look at my own love life (or lack there of) and clean it up a little bit.  I've been trying the online dating thing lately, and, although there were some gems among the gravel, most of the people on there are not worth my time.  So, I have had conversations with six guys today about me not being interested in them.  Some were online.  One was from high school.  Not all were losers, but they just weren't right for me.  So, I cut them loose.  No more.  I was honest and firm and did what I needed to do.  If I'm to eventually have a life worthy of a husband, then I needed to clean up the rabble.

It all reminded me of a sermon my old pastor once preached.  If you read the story about David and Goliath, there are a few key points to think about:  the loot and the warrant. (jk.  Carmen San Diego memories getting to me.) No, it's the loot, the practice, and the decision.

First point: There's some serious loot for killing a giant!  My giant is the stupid choices I've made in my singledom.  My reward comes after I kill the giant.  My reward is the loot, the not paying taxes, and the trophy wife, the king's daughter (or, in my case, the reward I'm believing God for is the trophy husband . . . not someone who's perfect, but someone who's perfect for me.)  That's right.  Did you catch that last part?  There was a prize involved for killing the giant.  Not just any prize, either . . . it was a flippin' awesome prize!  

The second point:  You can't just kill a giant with no preparation.  In the sermon Pastor Shane talked about the bear and the lion that David had already killed.  It's like, giant-killing practice.  I have been single the right way before.  I can hold out for the reward . . . I just have to quit looking at the giant and keep my mind focused because the reward will be worth it.  I killed another bear or a lion or something today when I made the choice to be honest with the guys I talked to today, which brings me to the next point.

Finally, you need to take decisive action when you're killing a giant.  (I actually wrote in my sermon notes "Throw the damn stone!")  David's peers were hiding from the giant.  David stepped up to the challenge.  I'm going to take decisive action in my relationships. Hell, I did it today. I decided that I wasn't interested in a relationship with the potential boyfriends I had in my queue and threw them out, so to speak.   I'm still not finished killing my relationship stupidity giant, but I'm that much closer, and feeling uber good right about now. 

Like I said before, I was honest and firm and did what I needed to do.  I weeded out the guys who I know are not for me.  And although some of them didn’t get the hint right away and tried to see this as a mere challenge or small snag in their plan, I was not a bitch and still did what I had to do.  Today has been a really great day for me.  FTW!